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Saturday, May 27, 2006

well lately my posts have been kinda... erm... weird?
anyone comments? heh...
i think everyone thinks im crazy and all that rubbish.
dont worry...
i wont be an idiot to end my life so stupidly.
seriously.

theres still so much more to live for
so much more in life
so much much more i want...
want...

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Friday, May 26, 2006

well i had thought of something just now
cant really remember
but i thought of it before
thought of it sometimes
grr... i hate it when i forgot wad i was thinkin
and when i was aching to pen it down....


now they say, friends come and go

some just stay for a while

some just passing by
now i wonder where you belong
while there are some who are forever there

standing with you through thick and thin
how i wish...
and i begin to wonder...

in 10 years, 20, or 60 years.... who will be the ones
who have been there all the while
or just as a friend there to share
just a friend... that still..
acknowledges, and recognises

there are times where after a short period of time
when a ceasefire is called
the period of silence
failure to communicate due to priorities,
or other... commitments, and fears...

people begin to saw thru that thick rope of friendship
slowly the layers loosen
the ends begin to fray
and before long...
the rope snaps....

with nothing to keep it anchored to a river bank
against the fierce currents,
the companion can no longer return to it
all is lost.

that boat drifts off....
down the rapids....
disappearing out of sight....
maybe we might meet again
maybe not
oh how i hope those few will remain...

who will remain?
is there anyone who will boldly answer
and say for sure

i would hope for nothing more
than to hold thee dear
as a friend
or...


and those whom i cherish so much now....
i hope this bond will not break
no saw should cut through a bond of steel
but the simplest of all can corrode it...
can we reinforce this metal...
and secure it....
can we?
will you?

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Thursday, May 25, 2006

im thinking
confusing myself
convincing otherwise
or am i deluded
i can psycho myself
each time i think
just those rare occasions

thought
what a cruel but powerful tool

now that it occurred to me
it does look nice
the water....

running in the rain
i decided to slow down
and enjoy the water pelting me...
hitting my head hard and fast
a curt attack
reassuring water
yet forceful
like slammin thoughts,
revelations into me

im goin off
i dont even know what im typing
im goin..
thats it....






o beautiful flower
the confused fool
attempting to get it
harbouring the thought
the waters drowning
my thoughts killing
drivingmyselfpsycho
wanting...

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Monday, May 22, 2006

lately i've been retreating into my own world alot
just taking a step back, and just having my peace and quiet
i might be doing it too often now... but i'm beginning to enjoy it more
(but we were still made for enjoying the company of our friends, so occasionally, there still is the need to hang out in a group.)
retreating into the peace and quiet is something that is nice to do...
it sometimes gets too hectic... having some peace will allow more time, and room for thought, deep thought.
but hey, i'm just regaining my energy..... i got a long charging period but long battery life [ hear hear mcpants ;) ]

and so people... thx for everything.... goodbye

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Friday, May 19, 2006

lost in my own world
my thoughts
the whirlpool of confusion

dreaming of what i hope for
but what i want
might not be what is best for me
o so foolish...


within me i feel so empty
deep inside there is a void that is left there
with only one keyhole for a specific key

the huge gap that exists
i know not what will fill it
but suspicions never fail to arise

in the turmoil of the wandering thoughts
the mind thinks deep
its not something easily comprehendable
the answer not easily sought out

do i have a misconception
or am i delusional


oh the peace of loneliness
the emptyness of being alone
the limitless space for deep quiet thought

loneliness...
sanctuary and/or abyss

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Wednesday, May 17, 2006

heh, went to watch VJChoir Symphony Of Voices 2006 last night at the esplanade. it was the first time i stepped into the esplanade concert hall. ahh.... and thank you olivia, for getting front front front seats, where i could see you really well o.O haha.. and martin looked REALLY different now... aha....

well... the first few songs, especially those 'sacred pieces' were kinda really... "brr" yet... "whoa! O.O!" (cos of the way they pulled it off..) really the 'sacred pieces' feeling. aha =x
and well.. overall... it was a fantastic night! darn.... i wanna join choir man.. haha... (i always wanted to)

and i met belle and liane during intermission... gosh, liane still talks so much. haha... its good to meet ex rosythians of pri6 '02.
and after the performance, went to wait, and find olivia... she has manyy fans o.O ahha... and she's still looking good =p

yea... after that, went home... was given a lift by her dad (:


{ahh.... VJ VJ... i must get into VJ.... my L1R5 must be really really reallyyyyy good.... >.<}

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Sunday, May 14, 2006

if i were to cry out in the middle of night
would you answer?
will you help?

if i were to reach out with everything
will you listen?
can you?

now i just fall upon my knees and ask
take it all
aid me

my cry to save them
my desire to do so
i will do it
i will give my best
guide me

with my words and actions i just seek
to reach out and establish this bridge
it takes two hands to clap
to build this relationship on firm ground

i just wish to be a beacon and that salt to those around me now
those unknowingly living their daily lives during these times
my heart burns to help them
my soul weeps for them...

can i do it?



[not by my will, but yours.]

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Saturday, May 13, 2006

someone tried to sign me up for an AIA investment plan yesterday...

then suddenly he asked..

"how old are you?"
"i'm turning 16"
"oh!! 16 ah... i thought you are working already.."

okay... i always get that...

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Ice Skating and the X-Men!!!

2I-ians'04 classmates got me out for ice skating today... just the few of us, but it was better... hahaa... small group more fun... and yeaa.... we ended up being delayed as usual... (HMMMM.....) and ice skating was pretty fun la.... i fell a grand total of 11 times! and and and... i hope i got the hang of it... but now that i think, i wonder when i'll ever ice skate again, so i'll probably fall again next time... and while my friends were desperately tryin to teach me (thx sarah and sihao) they told me to relax more!! i think examinations are much much more relaxing.... haa... overall it was a fun time.... then after we all went out separate ways (home or out) i went to church... (didnt feel like goin home.) and there we watched X-men!! so i told my mum i'll be home late.... ahh nice show... wish i could somehow watch X2 soon... (i guess the TV station will show it to promote X3...)

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the VJC Chinese Orchestra was awesome... (now some people are wondering.. hmm... drelina/dre and C-H-I-N-E-S-E Orchestra? doesnt seem to go together...)
but yes, let me emphasise on my interest in music... its about the music... not about its origins... although... those foreign language vocals i would not prefer that much...

the CO was really fantastic... Gold CO..... the last time i watched a Gold CO was in primary school... =/

the pieces they played were really good, and well played. (duh) ahh.... was a fantastic performance.. and the next VJC performance i'm gonna catch will be its choir concert on tues!

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Thursday, May 11, 2006

its over. but actually, counting chinese... theres still 2 more weeks to go through... before i'm free for another week or so.... and then the real studying begins, for O levels and Prelims. what a fine way to end the exams today, with much chemistry...

and so it'll be a 4 day break after this, just rest time....


and tonight's the night i'll be looking forward to.... heh...

its a beautiful day.....

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Tuesday, May 09, 2006

only 2 more sciences left...
then the real studying begins....

hooray.


on a side note, it was a rather good day...
and i'm a weird person! yay.


smiles are a pleasant and nice sight. xD
just none/not on me.

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Monday, May 08, 2006

...thru tears, sorrow or smiles... i'd go for miles...



its just not right...
does not feel right...


i'm desperate to do SOMETHING, ANYTHING.... please?

please....?

i just cant withstand it like this....

please.........

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Sunday, May 07, 2006

its just so disappointing.... those people who just simply believe and not give a chance.... hahas... well, people want upgrades i guess... o man.... next 5 years are gonne be boring.. haha... anyways, the opposition did well anyway..... esp the AMK and Aljunied GRC!! HAH! cant say so much.... =D

aside from this disappointment, there still...

its depressing... and heart wrenching.... what can i possibly do... i must do something..... i dun wanna see the sad look the next day, or any other day.... i guess all i should do is stand by and be there...

hmms... LOW THIA KHIANG retained Hougang SMC!!! YEAAA!!!
celebrations all about, i finally could see the support the people had for our MP while he was making his Victory Rounds. the best part was when someone shouted "WELL DONE WELL DONE!!" and LTK turned around to find the source, and said "THANK YOU THANK YOU!!" =D GO WP!!!!!!!

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Wednesday, May 03, 2006

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from http://cyborg.namedecoder.com

so either way, i'm supposed to be a nerd. i was trying for full name... and got as far as 'su' cos just ANDRE alone is...


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exploration huh.... lols...

exams exams... maths the best... =/

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